Monthly Archives: October 2019

The incredible disappearing man

Posted on October 27, 2019 by father at 54

On September 15th, my wife let me know that she was done. That we were done. For pretty much the next two weeks, I stopped eating. On October 2nd, I wrote a post about cutting in which I mentioned how everything … Continue reading →

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The first day of the rest of my life

Posted on October 21, 2019 by father at 54

I was fine, until I wasn’t. Sunday was the first time I wasn’t celebrating my anniversary. Friday I went out with my brother to a local casino, had a fantastic meal, saw former Cleveland Brown Bernie Kosar while we were … Continue reading →

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Bad timing

Posted on October 16, 2019 by father at 54

What would have been my anniversary is in 4 days My birthday is 10 days after that. I understand why she decided to end it after six weeks of the trial separation instead of waiting the full three months. I … Continue reading →

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Dead air

Posted on October 14, 2019 by father at 54

The first non-anniversary is coming up. My 7 year anniversary would have been in six days. Facebook and its memories feature is trying their best to kill me theses days. Happy posts about the upcoming nuptuals. Happy posts about the … Continue reading →

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National Coming Out Day

Posted on October 11, 2019 by father at 54

It’s National Coming Out day. And I need to say something to all my friends and family. Whew. Okay, ready? I, Father at 54, would like the world to know… that if you were gay, that would be okay. I mean, … Continue reading →

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She has many other fine qualities…

Posted on October 10, 2019 by father at 54

My therapist keeps telling me that I need to find my happiness. My problem is that my wife, my marriage, my kids and my family were my happiness. The person that made me the happiest, doesn’t feel the same way … Continue reading →

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Missed Opportunities

Posted on October 9, 2019 by father at 54

I apologize for the depressing posts lately. So you know what that means… IT’S TIME FOR ANOTHER SEX DREAM! Disclaimer: If you’re expecting to read something racy, you’re in the wrong place. If you’re expecting to read something mildly amusing, … Continue reading →

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Beaten

Posted on October 8, 2019 by father at 54

I walk like a defeated man shoulders slumped forward head down eyes just a few feet in front of me I blame my friends and my co-workers that know because when I look up far enough to see their faces … Continue reading →

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A slow and painful death

Posted on October 7, 2019 by father at 54

She is slowly moving her things from our bedroom a bag here a box there for a week I’ve looked at a nearly empty bookcase and wondered why she left behind the few things that remain yesterday her dresser and … Continue reading →

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Draft Dodging

Posted on October 5, 2019 by father at 54

I found some things in my drafts folder, hidden away since 2014. Thoughts I had started to put down before taking care of my newborn son was sucking the life out of me. The second one is especially interesting to me. — — … Continue reading →

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